Probably shouldn't even be thinking right now because I should be asleep

I feel like all of my life choices were either decided by my parents or influenced by my parents values, throwing me into a career that I'm not entirely sure I will like or even be able to tolerate. So many of the possibilities I had were shot down because I didn't think it was possible, didn't think they would approve or didn't think it was socially acceptable. It makes me wonder what would have happened if I had found my own way, asserting my own personal values and figuring out what I really wanted. As it is, I'm terrified that I'm going to lock myself into a life that I will hate and I will regret every moment of it. Not to mention the sinking feeling that I've let multiple dreams pass me by because I failed to pursue them.