I have a healthy crush for once. I nice, healthy crush that doesn't crush me to think about. A nice boy that doesn't seem to have any random strings that come along with him. A dancer, which is nice, but not one that I particularly like dancing with. He's still new, but he'll get better. Also, a boy that I know almost absolutely nothing about but want to get to know better. I don't even know how old he is. Or if he actually lives in SLO or in the surrounding cities. Or if he's still in college. He's cute, and looks absolutely harmless. He doesn't seem like the kind of boy who would hurt me, but then again none of them do.
Step 1: Find out how old boy is.
Step 2: Initiate conversation.
Step 3: Figure out of those lingering glances from Monday meant anything. Maybe he thinks I'm cute. That's a start!
Its nice to have a crush on someone and not feel like it will never happen or they're way out of my league. It feels nice.
EDIT: Boy is dating another girl. Sucks for me.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Monday, July 5, 2010
Fourthorama
4th of July. Pretty fun. The best part wasn't even the fireworks.
4 people came and met at my house, and we all piled into the car and readed to Ralph's to get some snacks. We met up with another car there and caravaned to Pismo for the fireworks. Of course, there was no easy parking. We ended up parking way up in the hills, but there was this large rock outcropping that us and a lot of other groups sat on. It was the perfect spot, but it took forever to drive around and find somewhere and it took forever to walk all the way do there. We got to the spot around 8:30 and settled in to wait for the fireworks, passing around the chips, cookies, and sandwiches we had picked up.
Finally the fireworks started at 9:15, but sadly New Guy, lets call him Dan, couldn't make it. He had taken a nap and didn't wake up in time, even though he had meant to wake up hours before. The extra warmth would have been nice, but I ended up being pretty okay. Sadly the glow sticks Kim had brought were lost until we were leaving, but we had fun with them after that.
After the works were over, we began the trek back up the hill to the car. It seemed a lot farther when walking up hill! We finally go there and got in the giant unmoving line of cars to get down the hill. We put the car in park, ready to wait it out. Finding a good radio station, we rolled down the windows and rocked out, yelling at passing pedestrians and having a good time. After about an hour of just sitting there, a lindy song comes on and me and Travis get out to dance. First we're just dancing on the side of the car in the dark. It's hard to lindy in tennis shoes on asphalt!!! We changed it to a song we could west coast to and started dancing in the headlights. People up the hill started cheering for us, and passing cars hooted at us too. It was EPIC. We danced a couple songs and then the cars started moving. We just skipped along, since it wasn't moving very far. At this point it was only me and Travis out of the car. We saw Amy walking down the street to find a bathroom and Marshal decided to go too. When he came back we joined hands and spin around in a circle moving forwards with the cars. Then Kim got out too and we were just dancing around for a while. The cars started moving and we skipped along for a couple feet when we realized they were REALLY moving and we ran screaming back to the car. "GO GO GO!!!" we yelled.
We made it back to SLO and my house around 11:30 and put on some music. Not everyone was dancing, but that was alright. We started a game of Dokapon kingdom to play for 5 game weeks and see who got the most money, but we didn't get anywhere near finishing it when Marshal wanted to play Mario Party. We don't have that game, so they played Mario Kart instead. I was playing Dokapon for a while then I decided I just wanted to dance. Maya and Zack showed up then, and we lit off some sparklers. My first sparkler ever!!! It was great.
A bit more dancing, but that was pretty much all for the night.
There was one song I really wanted to dance with Dan to, but he was already dancing with Kim. I was 5 seconds too late. I was a little upset, but not really and I got over it when Lenny danced with me. I then noticed that Dan danced with Kim a lot more than he danced with me, dancing with her twice in a row rather than asking me when I was sitting there. Given, I was played the video game too, but I would have rathered dance. Maybe he likes dancing with her more... and I really shouldn't let it get to me... but I was jealous. With him I really don't get jealous of him dancing with other girls since we will only dance once or twice in a night usually. But tonight I was getting really jealous. It was pretty bad. When they left, I was just hitting my head against the wall for being so naive. He's totally out of my league and there is no point in harboring ANY feelings for him, other than platonic ones. But I can't help it. I almost don't feel anything for the other guy right now. I almost wish it would go back to the other one, because then at least I know where I stand. I may not LIKE where it is, but I KNOW. That's the main part. Sure, the other one hurt because I wanted more and I couldn't have it and that hurt... and not being around him hurt. He was like a heroine addiction: I had severe withdrawals when he left. It was kind of ridiculous. And now I'm having withdrawals right after Dan leaves... at least with the other one I would feel okay when he left most times. It would just suck the next day. I put on a couple really powerful songs and danced it out and I'm okay now... but I'm still... ugh I don't even have a word for it. Other than SUCKAGE. Anyways.
Moral of the story: Really liking someone who is way out of your league SUCKS.
4 people came and met at my house, and we all piled into the car and readed to Ralph's to get some snacks. We met up with another car there and caravaned to Pismo for the fireworks. Of course, there was no easy parking. We ended up parking way up in the hills, but there was this large rock outcropping that us and a lot of other groups sat on. It was the perfect spot, but it took forever to drive around and find somewhere and it took forever to walk all the way do there. We got to the spot around 8:30 and settled in to wait for the fireworks, passing around the chips, cookies, and sandwiches we had picked up.
Finally the fireworks started at 9:15, but sadly New Guy, lets call him Dan, couldn't make it. He had taken a nap and didn't wake up in time, even though he had meant to wake up hours before. The extra warmth would have been nice, but I ended up being pretty okay. Sadly the glow sticks Kim had brought were lost until we were leaving, but we had fun with them after that.
After the works were over, we began the trek back up the hill to the car. It seemed a lot farther when walking up hill! We finally go there and got in the giant unmoving line of cars to get down the hill. We put the car in park, ready to wait it out. Finding a good radio station, we rolled down the windows and rocked out, yelling at passing pedestrians and having a good time. After about an hour of just sitting there, a lindy song comes on and me and Travis get out to dance. First we're just dancing on the side of the car in the dark. It's hard to lindy in tennis shoes on asphalt!!! We changed it to a song we could west coast to and started dancing in the headlights. People up the hill started cheering for us, and passing cars hooted at us too. It was EPIC. We danced a couple songs and then the cars started moving. We just skipped along, since it wasn't moving very far. At this point it was only me and Travis out of the car. We saw Amy walking down the street to find a bathroom and Marshal decided to go too. When he came back we joined hands and spin around in a circle moving forwards with the cars. Then Kim got out too and we were just dancing around for a while. The cars started moving and we skipped along for a couple feet when we realized they were REALLY moving and we ran screaming back to the car. "GO GO GO!!!" we yelled.
We made it back to SLO and my house around 11:30 and put on some music. Not everyone was dancing, but that was alright. We started a game of Dokapon kingdom to play for 5 game weeks and see who got the most money, but we didn't get anywhere near finishing it when Marshal wanted to play Mario Party. We don't have that game, so they played Mario Kart instead. I was playing Dokapon for a while then I decided I just wanted to dance. Maya and Zack showed up then, and we lit off some sparklers. My first sparkler ever!!! It was great.
A bit more dancing, but that was pretty much all for the night.
There was one song I really wanted to dance with Dan to, but he was already dancing with Kim. I was 5 seconds too late. I was a little upset, but not really and I got over it when Lenny danced with me. I then noticed that Dan danced with Kim a lot more than he danced with me, dancing with her twice in a row rather than asking me when I was sitting there. Given, I was played the video game too, but I would have rathered dance. Maybe he likes dancing with her more... and I really shouldn't let it get to me... but I was jealous. With him I really don't get jealous of him dancing with other girls since we will only dance once or twice in a night usually. But tonight I was getting really jealous. It was pretty bad. When they left, I was just hitting my head against the wall for being so naive. He's totally out of my league and there is no point in harboring ANY feelings for him, other than platonic ones. But I can't help it. I almost don't feel anything for the other guy right now. I almost wish it would go back to the other one, because then at least I know where I stand. I may not LIKE where it is, but I KNOW. That's the main part. Sure, the other one hurt because I wanted more and I couldn't have it and that hurt... and not being around him hurt. He was like a heroine addiction: I had severe withdrawals when he left. It was kind of ridiculous. And now I'm having withdrawals right after Dan leaves... at least with the other one I would feel okay when he left most times. It would just suck the next day. I put on a couple really powerful songs and danced it out and I'm okay now... but I'm still... ugh I don't even have a word for it. Other than SUCKAGE. Anyways.
Moral of the story: Really liking someone who is way out of your league SUCKS.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
New Guy.
Dancer. Good looking. Great personality. Great body. Great smile. There's no possible way he could like me too. Slightly older, but I'm okay with that. Slightly meaning 5 years. And he's an amazing cook. Dinner, dessert, everything. And he has a thing for randomly picking people up, which I love, of course. And he's vamped and wered on me a couple times too. Vamped, meaning going for my neck and Wered, meaning growling and feinting to bite my hand. I'm a fantasy freak. I'm totally into that stuff.
I know I said I need to find a distraction to take my mind off the other one, but this might just be a bad idea. Getting attached here could make life that much more painful. I can feel myself growing closer to him everyday. And we've broached the "hang out outside of dancing" barrier. Today we were dancing at salsa and my lips brushed something... it was just a millisecond, and I know he didn't mean to, but it happened. It might have been his cheek or something, but I can't help but wonder. I'm just going to let it play out, and who knows. I might just end up having a huge dancer guy as a really close friend.
Oh yeah, and he drives a Camry older than mine.
I know I said I need to find a distraction to take my mind off the other one, but this might just be a bad idea. Getting attached here could make life that much more painful. I can feel myself growing closer to him everyday. And we've broached the "hang out outside of dancing" barrier. Today we were dancing at salsa and my lips brushed something... it was just a millisecond, and I know he didn't mean to, but it happened. It might have been his cheek or something, but I can't help but wonder. I'm just going to let it play out, and who knows. I might just end up having a huge dancer guy as a really close friend.
Oh yeah, and he drives a Camry older than mine.
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