What do you do

When the person you like doesn't like you back? How about when they say they just want to be friends? What do you do when you believe that certain romantic happenings are going to go on between you and the person you like but it will mean absolutely nothing to them?

You grin and bear it. You make it mean nothing. You get over it and get on with your life.

Or, you secretly fall deeply in love with them behind their backs, wishing in vain that they would someday see that they feel the same for you.




But that's silly. Why would anyone sane ever do something like that?

Sad Panda

Six Flags trip was canceled. It was supposed to be raining. There is no point in going to an amusement park when it's raining! That's just no fun. All the roller coasters would be closed because of rain and I don't want to only ride the kiddie rides all day! We're gonna go during winter break sometime. We have to use the tickets before the new year. So that should be fun!

I had a pretty good weekend so far despite the lacking of six flags. I had a friend over last night and he ended up sleeping over, so that was fun. It's always nice to wake up next to someone. That's for sure! We also watched Ninja Assassin last night, and that was a good bit of epic gore. But it was cool. I approve. Then today I had a pure romance party which only a couple people came to, but we still had a really good time. I then hung out with one of the attendees, got an early dinner and hung out at her house for an hour. We played a short game of Dokapon Kingdom. Fun fun fun. :) Another good thing was I got to see the guy I like on Friday. But he needs a name, not just "the guy I like". Hmm... Lets see... Lets call him Guy, like in that one movie... was it Never been Kissed with Drew Barrymore? Whatever. Some guy... his name is Guy. And we're going to call this guy Guy as well. Ready, break. So, I had lunch with Guy Friday afternoon. That was really tasty. After that was when my other friend came over. But I have to admit, I would have much rather hang out and cuddle all night with Guy than my other friend. I'm not sure if he's into that though. I keep imagining what it will be like if he were to make a move. There are a lot of difference scenarios that like to run through my head! I'm not at the point where I feel like I need to tell him I like him or I'll burst, but I definitely like him. I really like hanging out with him as friends, but I want there to be more too. We just click really well and have done so since the beginning. That's how it's supposed to be, right?

Well tonight is blues and I'm trying to get Guy to come. I should do some homework (even though hw for this class isn't due) but I'm really unproductive right now. Oh well.

SIX FLAGS!

Next week. Six Flags trip. VERY EXCITING! They don't have any new rides since the last time I've been there, but this is still going to be a lot of fun. Right now it's me Mat and Colin, which shall be interesting. Me and Colin are very close and cuddly, and that makes Mat uncomfortable. Which makes sense because it's very obvious to people who don't even know him that he really likes me. He's not very good at hiding it. Oh well. What can they do, most guys are easy reader books. Running around all day with Colin is going to be really fun. I've spent a lot of time with him lately and we just really hit it off. It's really great. I'm glad I got to know him.

I was talking to this guy yesterday and today. The conversation was pretty interesting... Yesterday while he was drunk I mentioned that I will be 21 in a month and we should drink together then. He then claimed that if we drank together he would make a move on me. I'm not really sure what that means to him; would he start flirting, try to kiss me, or try to get into my pants? The world will never know. I guess I'll have to see. I told him that I think I could handle it. He said that he was sure that I could. Ha. We were then talking about Six Flags and I invited him to come. It would be really interesting to have him, Mat, and Colin all in the same car for 3 hours down to LA and back. They are all so completely different and I hope that they wouldn't clash. I know Colin and Mat get along well enough and Colin gets a lot with pretty much anybody. But Mat and this guy... I'm not sure. He's not really sure he can come at this point, he has to see what time he needs to be back on Sunday. I assured him we could change our departure time to adjust for his time frame. And if he came it would just be a sausage fest. Me plus three other guys. Yay? Or testosterone overload.


We shall see!

I'm mad at him

I'm mad at him because I liked him for so long and it went away. I started seeing him again, and it started coming back. But I don't want to to. I'm mad at him because he likes someone else now, or at least it seems very obvious that he does. He likes someone else and I feel like I'm getting neglected because of it. I'm mad at him because I liked him so much and got so hurt because of it. I'm mad at him because I feel like I wasted a couple months of my life on that. And finally I'm mad at him because he never liked me.


On a happier note, I had a Harry Potter Movie a thon yesterday (Harrython) and it was a lot of fun. We ate lots of snacks and not really a good meal the entire day. Yay...? The final two movies will be watched on Sunday. And the midnight showing is next week! Yay. Next week I'm making a trip down to LA to go to Six Flags. That should be really fun.




Anyways, ANGST! Okay, I'll good now.

Not so Great

So, I made a post recently (the most recent one) about how life was going pretty well and I was happy with the progression. Now, not so much. The classes I thought I was doing okay in... Not so good. So far I have taken 6 midterms, plus another tomorrow. Of those 6, one was awesome: perfect score. The others, not so great. The one I took today, I don't have high hopes for it. The others: 71 and 55. Given, the average for the 55 class was only a 68. But still. 55 does not make me happy in any way. The one tomorrow I feel like I will do okay, that's the perfect score class, but the material has gotten significantly harder since the last midterm. I'm really not sure how this one will go. After this, that's all for the test phase until Finals week. That is going to be... well... Fun. If by fun, you mean the complete and utter lack of fun.

As for relationships go, my sex life has slowed down a bit. The guy I was fooling around with has stopped piquing my interest, but I might go back if I get especially horny one day. There are a couple of guys I like, one in particular more than the others but I'm keeping my options open. The one I like is tall, dark, and handsome. Well, he's kinda cute. But his personality is great, and I absolutely melt when he smiles. He's the kind of guy that can make me burst out laughing with very little effort, and that's pretty much what I'm looking for. I like laughing. Laughing is good. It frees the soul. Or whatever. Anyways... I'm not sure he likes me, but I'm just going to ride it out and see what happens. I plan to hang out with him more one on one at some point, but being really busy and trying to plan things at the same time makes that a bit difficult. It'll happen sometime. We mentioned that our jokes are starting to get old and we need new ones, but that means we need to hang out more. He agreed. That's a good sign. Him agreeing that we should hang out, I mean.

Dancing is always good. I was on a swing haitus for a bit and wasn't getting into it as much, but I got it back this weekend and had an awesome time at Madonna yesterday. I'm not really into WCS at all lately... It's just really not my thing at all. And of course, blues is always good. I really don't enjoy Saturday nights as much as I used to, but that's why I'm glad that we have Wednesdays. Wednesdays are always phenomenal, as long as there are enough leads. Normally the music is better as well. Which is also nice. This week we are starting 30 minutes early and doing a practica, where you have to bring your own partner. I asked the guy who's house it is held at and he said yes, which is happy. I have a partner! Yay. This is also the guy that I think may possibly have a thing for me. We have really good dances that are sometimes a bit closer than I feel he dances with other girls. But I'm not sure. We also had a really stimulating dance Friday at the Halloween party when I was a bit on the tipsy side. By stimulating I mean that it was just really close and a pretty sexy dance. I may have also felt that way because I was a bit on the tipsy side. Who knows. It was a good dance. I'm not really sure where I would go with that if anything every came from that relationship. I'm not sure if I like him in that way. I'm not specifically attracted to him, but he's a nice guy and it maybe could work... I'm really not sure. I would have to see. But it probably wouldn't come around, so I really don't have to worry about it. It's fun to think about though. It's always fun to think about :)



All in all, dancing is good, School is worrying the crap out of me, and I'm too busy for my own good. I'm staying sane. Somehow.